Everything changes and so do I...

But, most other people seem to just stay the same, always stuck at some part of their past... So am I at times... and, yet, I do change. Finally, I move on and let the past behind me. But, it is not easy to move on when you don't know what is gonna happen in the future, or where you wanna go.

It's not easy to face yourself and to overcome all those petty things that trouble your soul. But, you have to do it. Or, you will never be happy.

Most people stay stuck in the past, because there's no future, as the Sex Pistols song says, where to move on. But, as the rest of the world moves around them, they either consider their life non-existent or they tell people they move on, while they never do. The fake future where some people choose reside their souls is not a real thing.

We all have to face ourselves, our actions (or lack of them) and our past to be able to move on, and most of us are not willing to do so, so we usually reside to the easy option of moving on with troublesome things in our souls, that never allow us to be truly happy, or to the easier option of being "no-lifers"... Ha ha ha, it's so fucking funny, and so damn sad at the same time.

Anyway, I am moving on... but, still am kinda sad and wonder:

"Why can't you just feel things the way I do?"

If anyone ever did, we may all be happier... It's everyone's fault that fairy tale endings don't exist in real life...


I feel lonely, but, I'm looking for real friendship and love... that's the meaning of life: unconditional love! And, I do live by what I write, that is why I rarely feel the need to edit or delete my journals.

And, trust me, even a "no life" online on the net is a past and a way of having a real life.